the aleph

It is clear this world will end
and I'm okay
I just want to do the things I need
before this show is over
to leave the world without regrets

memories of ephemeral moments
the rustle of leaves
the faces of lovers
I cannot let go of
so full of pain, of joy and love
so full of everything


It is okay if everything ends
if in that last fleeting moment
I could feel it all

I ain't got no type
bad bitches are the only ones that I like

I am torn down
Left hand path
All this time spent
looking for a real experience
Return to the tree of life

           Retain some of it

Turn the world inside out

I suffered a little
  the pain of tearing a hole
         through reality

tuesday

after the warm bustle of the last few days
filled with friends and love and happiness
I am alone again
soft black tentacles wrap around me
pulling me back into the darkness
of unsolvable questions
such as why you are not mine anymore
and why I am still yours

✛

I will be undone
live for nothing but truth
solitary
undeserving
remain stripped of all pretense
empty of form

in this barren place alone
can I be real

I am real.

I exist.

I hope.

✛✛✛

fall

worse than a fall from paradise
is the knowledge one has voluntarily left it.