Your smile holds a secret (and so it remains hidden)

After all the days that passed
so many words remain unsaid
and still I dream of you
still I dream to hold you
closer to my heart
forget the things we never said
words that stay in mid-air dead
I forgive you for everything you never did
forgive myself for nights all gone
never to return.

Cause when you know all truth is bare
the end will be the end
there are no rules in heathen's land
The strangest tale may work just now
with the strangest touch of luck.

A life you wasted
a life you gave me
quickly turned away
Why did I lose you
when there was nothing
when there was no one
but you in my heart?

Why did you lose me
while I was waiting
only to find you
right here from the start?

Some day my prince will come

I don't talk
I don't fake
I don't walk
I don't leave
but I don't want to stay
don't always want to make the same mistake.

I can't stop
I can't go
I can't relax,
can't be alone
and when I listen to the music I don't know I just confuse it,
I get turned around.


& I'm running
& I'm running

I can sound all the words in my head but they got no soul.
What I'm trying to say's getting stuck but I got so close.
But I'm out of time to let you know
I'm songless.

Lange - Songless

xi7t

verloren tijd

all of the moments that already passed
I try to go back and make them last

New Moon

flames to dust
lovers to friends
why do all good things come to an end?

Nergensland

engelen
vierkant
droomgang
vergeten verleden

je stem
in een kamer
zilveren vleugel
donker licht

verlang alleen
om zonder
vorm te zijn

het begon
als licht
zwevend in ruimte

toen kwamen bomen, gras
mensen, dieren,
afspraken die ik vergeten was
beloften regels en manieren

geef me veren
maak me licht
laat me verdwijnen
laat me alleen
zo als ik altijd al was

drie-kant
nachtwereld
acht-hoek
het is dichtbij

je gaf me alles
maar alles
betekent niets.

achterland / eenzaam / al-tijd

droom

[mijn hand raakt het water]

gedachte

[kwart voor zes]

het zal niet lang meer zijn

[spiegel]

het is nabij

volg me door de achterdeur

[spiegel.beeld]

ik raak je bijna aan

betreed

verloren achter-land

en zie

ontdaan van alles

al-tijd

The spell / Do What U Want

Now it's me
I just can't believe
you're with someone else

With one kiss you have me
I wanna look into your eyes
To see that special place

I'll be here for you
If you ever need me
I'll be here for you
If you ever need me

I've been waiting for so long
it's starting to kill me
What do I have to do?

It's like she's cast a spell
I wish I knew how to break it
So you'd take a little notice of me

Now it's me
I just can't believe
You're with someone else

I'll be here for you
If you ever need me
I'll be here for you

I wanna take you away
We could forget about life for a while
Driven to a world of ecstasy
Where I can hold you

You look so happy with her
I wouldn't want to tear you apart
But whatever happens
I just want you to know

I've been waiting for so long
it's starting to kill me
What do I have to do?

It's like she's cast a spell
I wish I knew how to break it
So you'd take a little notice of me

Jasefos ft. Claire - Do What U Want (with minor changes)

Never worry / Free of time and place

There’s a dream that I see, I pray it can be
Look cross the land, shake this land
A wish or a command
A dream that I see, don’t kill it, it’s free
You’re just a man, you get what you can

We all do what we can
So we can do just one more thing
We can all be free
Maybe not in words
Maybe not with a look
But with your mind

Listen to me, don’t walk that street
There’s always an end to it
Come and be free, you know who I am
We’re just living people

We won’t have a thing
So we’ve got nothing to lose
We can all be free
Maybe not with words
Maybe not with a look
But with your mind

(Cat Power - Maybe Not)

:Lone: / God music / Estrogen junkie

untangle me
your body is a tool
this form: meaningless
an angel in your mind
I'll lead you to a greater place
carnival of extacy
ascend above the human race
will show you to arise

Dream index / Neverland (engelen . 9 droom)

verdriet
is alleen maar
droom-wereld
houdt gangen en vluchtwegen vrij

won't you send me a nursery rhyme
to keep me quiet
while you're on fire
please just send me a nursery rhyme
to keep me quiet
while you're on fire

Are you now...
or have you ever?
hope-song
nothing but the passing
of a broken time
(help is on the way)

I'll show you freedom
when you want to...

Donkere wereld

donkere wereld
waarom huil je?
wees niet verdietig.
ik hou van jou

Valkyrie (rise upon your feathered wings)

what are you to me?
all your safety I recieved
your gentle feathers cover me
spread your wings all over me
how did I ever deserve
all of your heart
tears make me blind I can't see
angel-child
your wings are mine
carry me through your sleep
let me fall so deep
come guide me to
your never never land
my ever-love, my mystery
is this what you needed me
to always see?

Entity rewritten (ghost of love)

don’t tell me that I’m free
cause I’m still feeling chained
don’t tell me that you’re not
you’re only more afraid

& if your god means love
then how come, please explain
you only use his name
to make us fear what’s strange?

don't be desperate

hang on

sacrificial

goodbye kisses

all-time

Robot-life / Meds

this smiling puppet I’ve become
[forget nothing]
[collect story]
[worries fading]
[and repeat]
robot-life

fuck all this filth inside my head
let breathe again to feel my pain
don’t medicate emotions dead
see only what is real, each stain
an ocean deep dark sea of black

this mind is my own
I love and hate whom I choose to
I fly with burning wings
Ignore rules
deaf to the calls of worried
Fear me
Fear-le
Veerle

Cat alley / Noburu Wataya

in the dust of passing time
will nothing thread
but cat-paw
a glitter-eye in dusk
sneaking softly
each dew-drop on the spider web
a crystal in the night

it's here we hide
your nightmare and your dream
a corner of your mind
this alley in between
where only cats will walk

Where have you gone, Noburu Wataya?
did the wind-up bird
forget to wind your spring?

Ghost-angel / Utopia

From this old frame
please set me free
today a dream, lingering
and tomorrow
create cocoon
change silently
escape this singular form
and let me forever be
duality

I will rise
and will return
on silver wings to burn

My sweet, misbuilt utopia
your streets are bleeding with tears
of those who no longer walk them
for fear of all who are outside
with smile and laugh unwittingly
defeat who really care
break down those who wish

to be more than single form
your misplaced nostalgia
your fear of all else
will be the death of them
will be the death of me

You could be what you want to be if you would be who you truly are

yes you recieved
now will you listen
or leaves and sing-song
part of me needs
this silent revenue
part of me dreams
feathered godess true
tangle me, undo
ein teil von mich
& traüme
ein teil
von mich
you are
relent-less
care-less

Poltergeist swingcat, dansu dansu

enjoy
things not done before
masks to be worn
give endlessness
and end less
dansu dansu
poltergeist swing


Now, in dreams, a mysterious woman weeps softly - for him. Yet, even as he tries to understand why, the voice that beckons is not hers. And still he dreams. Bizarre dreams that propel him down byways of his life in search of ... ?

How we left these woods

failed
confused
and wondering
mesmerise
fearle

You are the mask I wear

All of this that you have given
silent song inside my head
mistakes we made forgiven

name-sake
time.bomb

time bleeding from my head
time a bird ever expanding
find birth within my head
dream of colors, swirling things

explode
Meaning-less
Fear-me
Fear-le.

A safe place for cats

La Maison de mes Rêves

verloren dagen
terug op vaste grond
hier waar ik weet waar en waarom
hier waar ik me
geborgen voel
veilig land

Conspiracy of cat versus man

vergeten verleden
droom
dansend licht

en vogels

verleden tijd

My body is a weapon

Ellen Allien - Thrills

Spread your wings

I remember
walking in a rainstorm
sitting in the long grass in summer
Keeping warm
our memory
of a restless night
We were so young then
We thought that everything
We could possibly do was right
Then we moved
Stolen from our very eyes
And I wonder where you went to
Tell me when did the light die
You will rise
You'll return
The phoenix from the flame
You will learn
You will rise
You'll return
Being what you are
There is no other Troy
For you to burn

And I never meant to hurt you
I swear I didn't mean
Those things I said
I never meant to do that to you
Next time I'll keep my hands to myself instead
Oh, does she love you
What do you want to do?
Does she need you like I do?
Do you love her?
Is she good for you?
Does she hold you like I do?

Do you want me?
Should I leave?
I know you're always telling me
That you love me
Just sometimes I wonder
If I should believe
Oh, I love you
God, I love you
I'd kill a dragon for you
I’ll die
But I will rise
And I will return
The Phoenix from the flame
I have learned
I will rise
And you'll see me return
Being what I am
There is no other Troy
For me to burn

And you should’ve left the light on
You should’ve left the light on
Then I wouldn't have tried
And you'd never have known
And I wouldn't have pulled you tighter
No I wouldn't have pulled you close
I wouldn't have screamed
No I can't let you go
And the door wasn't closed
No I wouldn't have pulled you to me
No I wouldn't have kissed your face
You wouldn't have begged me to hold you
If we hadn't been there in the first place
but I know you wanted me to be there
Every look that you threw told me so.

Sinead O'Connor - Troy (with minor changes)

love tree

Safe from harm

When the world is sick can't no one be well
But i dreamt we was all beautiful and strong

A Silver Mt. Zion

Your dreams will come to life

to you who hides

I was feeling lost
Waiting to be found
You helped me start again
Made me feel safe and sound

Since I met you
I've found a new direction
You gave me the hope
The hope of insurrection

You opened my eyes

No more crying
No more lying
No more lies

No more hiding
No disguising
No more lies

No more crying
No more lying
No more lies
You helped me to arise.

A.M. - Arise

I have been wrong before

In an ocean of noise
I first heard your voice
ringing like a bell
as if I had a choice, oh well

Left in the morning
while you were fast asleep
to an ocean of voilence
a world of empty streets
you've got your reasons
and me I got mine
But all the reasons I gave
were just lies to buy
myself some time.

In an ocean of noise
I first heard your voice
now who here among us
still believes in choice? nada.

Arcade Fire - Ocean of Noise